Friend sick

Feeling an overwhelming sadness and distress and loneliness, like a wave that overtakes you and you go under for a few minutes. Pangs that seem to pierce the heart. I miss my friends so very much, it hasn't been so acute as this really since we arrived in London. But right now its a deep longing for my good pals, for friends who really know and love me for who i am, not for who i pretend to be. And relationships that change, due to someone else taking a loved one or family members affections away from me. Ok that sounded awful and selfish but i am realising that relationships, even the dearest best friend or sister brother relationships become more distant and strained, even though you don't want them to and try your best not to let them. They change. It's a heart crusher. But we have the Lord Jesus Christ, closer than a brother, who never moves away from us, despite us moving often from him. It's good then, that the frailty of human relationships changing and distorting keeps us longing for heaven, where we will be with our God in deep passionate relationship forever. But it still hurts the heart for now...